running ardyourhse

2007-05-23T15:49:00.000+08:00

art

2005-07-29T11:29:00.000+08:00

art room
skipped assembly
bored.
take care
nice arguement at my blog
lyk some wet market - AUNTIES

remember

2005-07-26T23:23:00.000+08:00

almost no lesson today
cut cloth for fashion design, in canteen
vomitted again
cabbed home, sleep till 07

remember; gabriel mann
the moment you face; is it all straight ahead or behind you?; well maybe if you look around; you'll see everythings perfectly clear; picture it all in your mind.
remember where we are now; open your eyes; take it all in; remember where we are now; this is where your life begins
you feel like, your lost in the crowd; watchin life go on without you; well baby, its your turn to shine; everythings starting right here; dont leave this moment behind
dont look away; its the life that you choose now believe it; there'll come a day; when you look up and see how good you are with me
remember where you are now; open your eyes
take it all in; remember where you are now; this is where your life begins, ohh..

this song rocks. gt dance tmr.
love to all.

colours

2005-07-25T22:11:00.000+08:00

wateva.. (=

busy week;
monday art,dance 0600; tues art 0630; wed dance 0500; thurs econs consultation, g12 1000; fri sonicfest 1100

watch outta de time i leave school ?! i take an hr half to reach hm ! this is madness, stop sucking my energy. but i love\~~cant~~ dance. dance rm looks disgusting with all e drooling guys outside but they r only watching that 'hot babe'. okay la, she's cute, nt hot yet. i haf 2 tests >maths geog< on thurs, nxt mon chi-na test and another geog test on nxt thur -.- keep me going, o Lord i'll try not to be sick. art work is starting to pile, im stressed to listen in class. now online also due to PW work, im nt free. but pls still date me out if u need someone to eat with ~~not shopping please~~ i haf to save now; badly.
my lover, felicia bought me a pair of havianas as my pre-a-month bdae gift. how sweet. check out kelvin + ben at heeren lvl 4 urbannewmale. ahaa ohh me bought a pair of kid's havianas to put as keychain on my lovely adidas bag. CUTE! ~~kill me if i spend~~ ahaa

mentally ill

2005-07-23T10:36:00.000+08:00

call me sick in de mind
i vomitted last night, wosssh
cldnt slp for hrs, hv to rush so much work today. gosh, i better get cured in service ltr.
just wanna say "wateva", i hv nt much energy to hear shit.
wt's de world, dude ?

i bet im under a curse. AHAA
oh btw, happy brithday weixiang. (even tot there's 100% chances tt he wunt read my blog)
blessings ard e world. ~~no cursing or swearing~~
b nice, everyone.

ill

2005-07-22T17:29:00.000+08:00

today i never go SCHOOOOOL
SHO HAPPY (=
but i missed my Art ACJC exhibition, de shuai ges & ..
im down with fever enn gastric, see we christians fast untill this kind of state, may we touch God's heart on our sincerity to save s'pore (: (:
i see doctor on my pimples too, FINALLY! there's cure for my face, ahaha im gonna b pretty in months' time. HAHHA but i have to pop 8 pills a day ~suffer

yest was crapp day lar, had too much fun over at chinese enn GP which were supposed to b two honest enn boring lessons, meant for nerds. but my cls pple gotta HIGH, real high and start to be so enthu bout' chinese, my teacher went .. speechless, we sang chi-na songs, so do my teacher & we took pictures. de class went outta of control ~~evil grins~~ GP cls was all bout' love fallacies, teacher suan us & we keep shooting back. intense class discussion.

aft sch, sat at canteen w my rugby princesses, ching, lana + dor and did art. no mood at all loh, was thinking bout so much things. MJ came then we became PI enn start to stalk pple, first target was kaixin, we found her at library w her ~~rotten~~ apple. we talk alot alot, behind all de pple studying.. i tink dey can hear us =X had yami, went cell, everyone prayed for me (: thnk you poo enn dav, they carry my heavy stuffs till i reach my hm bus stop. xiexie`

hey pple! a month more to my bdae -grinsgrinsgrins
-- enuff of the insults la, r u stupid enough to do all these at yr age ? i cannot b bothered. hate me then hate lor, not that I LOVE U ?! look whose blog is this ? MINE, so dun like it, so offline la. dude, get a life. u will get more winkles n even more pimps than me, just by wasting yr time reading my blog. dun get too jealous of me, shoo shoo..

a lot of cuts

2005-07-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

a cut on my leg
a cut on my knee
a cut from my brain
a cut from my wrist
a cut from my heart
corrine may; save me

invisible

2005-07-20T17:27:00.000+08:00

warning!!if you're nt here to read but to make a fool of yrself again, den get lost ?! this is not sum funny sites for u to luff at, im not the monkey. detestable grp of pple, BUZZ OFF !
mabbe im sensitive but i know things r nt gonna end so tat simple =\

art room now. had my first session of dance, cool, my body can move for an instance ! felt so awkward but everyone can just dance so well (: i betta put in more effort. i had a bad night last night, whole night was tortured by econs enn today's test was totally screwed up. NVM, i shall haf my consultation w teacher soon. what a good student -.- today had sum security NS seminar, i just slp str away ;geex; ohh i made breakfast for myself, sis, heng & jess this morning. feelin quite okay now, just feel that sumthing is lacking in this life. ahaa oh there's so much, so much songs i wanna put up here ! im once again indulged into jay chou's song (: (:

buRpp

2005-07-17T10:35:00.000+08:00

s u n d a y morning
definition in jacq's theory: a day with sun hanging in th emid sky, a smile on my face, a BIG MAC' breakfast before my table, get ready for sunday sch enn .. wateva u name. i got none. happy sunday ?
okayy laa, i tink i hv much enuff to complaine abt my pathetic life, but i shld always squeeze sum happy moment in my life. like how much i enjoy service enn meeting my cell mbers (:
one gd thing, i haf no school today. in 1 n half yr, i'll be in the teritary school -UNI, if i can make it laa (: and im so looking forward, there will be better changes. yes, life will move on fast .. i sound as tot im crapping again im hving promos at end of sep, so early. hais. jaiyou. make friends with nerds n my pimples (=

yest. wen to alot of art museum. enn even NAFA. inspired and desired -ART- to be my motivation in skool. boys ? get outta of my life. ahaa .. once again introducing the brain-washed me, at sum stages of life, u just dun need a guy by yr side. yea, b independent. ahaa, i was all along single -geex

normal

2005-07-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

a normal entry at an unstable mood.
life's turning into a crap scene again
i say 'c r a pp'
wed stayed in art rm studied geog, watched the racial harmony rehearsal. gotta ntss kids cum to pjc, so is other skools. home. meet Quan and friends. i felt young, everyone was 2 yrs senior than me, fellow ntss-kiddys (= i nv see em for almost 3 years. Quan still owe me a meal, but he's flying to japan then back to canada. what a friend ! wealthy freako !
pool the night, studied geog at pool place la. so gonna pass my bloody test.
went school. at traffic light. at my 2.4 running. at GP class.

today. skip alot of lessons. went art rm slack, rest & draw. stone with mj. meet pri frens for dinner. baybeat by esplanade. nv see youu. had big hugs w many frens, lyk mj, heng enn fer (=

paranoid;; i kepp running away from reality, but so many people spy me, spy me for what ? for nothing, cause im irritating enn pple loves to make fun of me. luff u pple, yr jaw will drop one fine day. mean enn evil. dun behave lyk me (=

P.S. number of stars i've met over 7 days- sly (spr idol), leon (sprstar), wateva guitarist (gd' charlotte), taufik (spr idol) !lucky gal
bitches nw adays r gettin out of hands.

today

2005-07-12T14:50:00.000+08:00

0250
u canteen, me art room
sucks.
im sry but i hate this kind of just basically glazing one another thing. just .. nvm, i suck too. shldnt we just acknowlegde that actually we know one another thingy ? a a rrgh enuff is enuff, but i hv no guts to go over to you. bleahx. we'll just remain as strangers for the rest of our lifetime =\
we walk into skool together, i saw you in yr maths cls again. i eat, u stare. a great tuesday (:

cool day with art again but my head hurts badly. gosh im so enjoyed love tmr, but thurs got test. hey my art seniors finally smile at me, it takes long for em to realise im nt as bad as they think & to acknowledge i take art with em ! tt's nice anyway.
hey! spooky show tickets selling at $4, anyone interested =D just pop me a message ?! support my church! it's on 27th aug, sat afternoon ! MSG me asap (:

angry

2005-07-11T00:21:00.000+08:00

i am angry at you.
what's with yr friendster? (im mad !)
so NVM, if you're a 100% gurl, watch sleepover. you will definitely went mad lyk me, esp over sean faris enn you will love all those cultures with .. girls stuff? just name it. i had a good weekend to let of my hair, stress has lossen its tangles in me. ohh bugis street is a madness place to shop. i LOVE there till de bits (: (: i went for energy's concert FREEEE. it was just alright and stuff lyk that. kunda waved at me& jess when we scream his name. (concert?!! he can HEARR !) he's such a darlin enn he's sensitive to my voice. HAHA. jess burst my ear drums. got it ?

i totally forgot what i wanna typed at furst. NVM x) no more ? i took pic with tat leon from tt superstarr show. he& sly went for e concert too. quite cool enn chubby. slyvester looks suckier. suck. short\ skinny\ tatoos. winkles on his face will make him an OLH AH BENG. MUAHAHaa what a singapore icon yucks.

bad days

2005-07-07T23:48:00.000+08:00

a series of bad days ahead.
it will be ; f c * k
oo00ps just dun feel lyk caring anymore things. crap life. how on earth can such horrible happen to pple who deserve to be loved enn cared tenderly ? i dunnt under/s more enn more things. i wish im just right up on heaven now. murder me, someone stab into my heart enn dump my body into the sea.
PLEASE.
struggling with work enn more work. disappointed at my results. only DUMBS can get 4/30 for maths. i got it. YES, ME! what can of example am i setting for ? ohh, tt day when chung left for aust, i was such a loser. crying lyk a childless mum ; so is bel enn julie (x chen wei jia from chnl u, superstarr never got into semi-finals. (VOTE for him in revival rd!) he's cutee enn cutee, i was nearly tat cute. so is tat "hong .. xxx" wateva u name it.
nicole took a pic of him using my fone when i was talking on HER phone. nasty but loving ger. big LUFF. luff people, please luff at me. sick enn tired. GRAB hold of me =\

seldom

2005-07-06T11:54:00.000+08:00

is der less enn less pple blogging ?
puzzled.
once again, introducing pjc art room =D
best hideout (no one finds u here!)
the storm has stopped but the rain r still pouring lyk madness over my head =\ how i wish, a shelter was der. chung's leaving tonight, going airport from west to east
;;cr a pp. lemme say sumthing, der's a high possibility tat im gonna get fired outta of odac since im so paranoid der tot my attendance still so-so. HI enn BYE then. im pissed enn feeling miserable bout' de whole cca. just make me rmb tat bloody incident. awfull ... fine, happy stuff. my eyes r sharp, he cuts hair (:
i had oral for chi'na yest.
the word is [b] [a] [d] *boooOOOOoH* enuff of de bad part of school. im still in de midst of fasting, perhaps hunger do make me feel worse den im supposed to. i enjoyed the company of my spiritual family, always eating, playing enn loving but.. good times dunt last. hurhur
try going 7-11 at midnight to do groccery shoppin, it helps to cool yr mood *proven* (<-- felicia! see this ? LOLX)

children are a piece of art.

2005-07-04T14:17:00.000+08:00

happy belated birthday to my own mummy!
dah~ mum was happy today, running to me telling me, today is her lunar chi bdae, yest is yr western bdae. she was lyk "so cool enn coincident horh?" i went, ma, i still hav no present for you =x i din buy anything, ltr i shall try to get something cool. so, i napped at hm yest frm 2-8. watched NKF, me enn mum flooded e living rm. the kids hving cancer was ... arrgh.. so my mum donated the most money she ever had for a charity show. she dialed the 5-calls-no. ARGH $30, too little i guess. the kids r really so innocent.
was watching de show enn asking God alot of quests, God, why this & tat ? it was just so right with yest's sermon, life is not fair but God is good (:
i dunnoe.
chung's leaving, hving farwell din tonite for him.
at geylang (?!!) ahaa
losing a gd church buddy soon, the world is ...
ohh i completed one master piece last night *proud of myself* again

7th happiest day

2005-07-03T00:16:00.000+08:00

7th happiest day.
get it ? it's fine, not meant for dummiEs
(just for laugh -ahaah)
i had misery with laughter today, i completed some work too. went for skool's econs lect, felicia's place to crapp; eat; did art, together with heng. meanwhile took some boldness to ask ard pple's for sum stuffs =) then i towned with fer, ate churros -nicee- cabbed to her fren's bbq. i wanna sue @#%$#@ CABBS, the uncle dunnoe what's courts, it sux to talk to him, only in chinese. he keep insisting things whhich r not along tat journey. we spend more than u usually does bukit timah's not a nice place =\
aft bbq went to koon's place (chi high fren) took some stuff.
yea.
double smilex
triple blessings
7th happiest day !
youth day r meant for youths lyk me, young + ~~sexy~~\ o0ps\ahaah jk lar. im free on monday to studdddddyy.. cause i din thru out my june hols. blaHHx busy me digging unto work. oh today 2nd day of fastin, i got thru it *proud* totally.
will you enter my dreams again?

u can call me an idiot

2005-07-02T00:06:00.000+08:00

you can call me a complete idiot.
whateva tat makes you glad.
i go ard blogging but this's the best, dunnoe hw to use friendster blog. the overall of my entire week is obviously cra pp as usual. seriously, it's just me being bashed up with attacks of work load, unsufficient slp & a dream of my him -~~just utter nonsense~~- i dunnoe, i dun lyk the pace of n o w. it's heavier + just too fast ? call me a turtle or tortoise, im slow enn really unable to keep with my life. yes, i'll be kicked outta of this world, isolated by myself alonne, looking back at the memories enn tell myself it's better to be myself than competing with lives `bloody `cruel =\

first day of my fasting /40days prayer fast/ christians fast.
if im nt wrong, city harvest kids fast 24hr evr wed ?
went hungry for 10 hrs, ran 2.4 during odac with empty tummy. life is hard but seeing lives tat r devastating in this world is much of an heartache compared to me. sitting before the com right now !!
Tsunami's victims, r u sure all haf found their homes ? teenagers all over the world, r all free frm drug enn unsafe sex? kids enn pregnant women, r all receving sufficient daily nutrients to go thru with life ? they need our prayers.. give one even if you're nt a christian (:

yo mama

2005-06-30T12:47:00.000+08:00

1, 2, 3. baaaah.
im hiding outta nt in art room today, im in the my chinese class, teacher had no idea what im doing cause the typing is just too quiet le *shhhhh ..*
my yesterday;;
it was c ra pp enn hilarious again.
during the second break, de guys frm my class played ~~truth~~ enn dare & de girls joined in, in e end.

[listofcrapwedid]
ho shing went to every canteen stalls utensils container enn make noise, disturb all J2s who r preparing their maths p2.*hahaa* min ci played invisible tennis against a notice board. cindy did weight lifting with the canteen table, counting "one thousand.. two thousand.." kaixin went to two strangers' table enn si down, talking on the phone, luff en went away. the 2 strangers went -.- xueli went up to strangers' and helped him take plates

we di haf pw lesson so we played murderer (gt detective .. haaha) i learned a new game today! =) went for art, train home. my fren enn i were so lucky, both of our eye candies on the same bus, enn mine on same train, only till jurong (!!) cool. first time see him wear glasses. cooler.
school seems fun but .. look beyond; u find darkness =\ (nicole gets my meaning!)

im in DEE hse !

2005-06-27T15:24:00.000+08:00

wasssssup;
im in DEE hse, hse of the artists
-art room-
im bored, got a lot of works owe`ing teachers. im just another piece of dead meat so, really, GOD! help me! desperate & single, need so much more time. one month & im still back the same in school. stupid me, sian, nth much to post, just worrying abt myself =\

hahaa

2005-06-26T18:55:00.000+08:00

just had 2 bowls of porridge.
life's happiness has an end.
today is my end because i nv wanna tell myself tat im running outta of time and im so gonna haf promos soon ? i heard it's aft sep hols. PJC rocks for once -no mid yrs- ahaa everyone's bucking lyk mad nw xcept our stupid skool. im so gonna top my yr (counting frm the back)

movies treats to myself these days. had initial D n alot like love. plots tat r refreshing at last. so, yea thumbs up for both movies (: alot like love is rather long but let the love keeps u going on ; ahaa` shawn yue is my husband. booooooo. short entry. hving sch tmr. im so gonna 'love' sch. nvm, at least can .. nvm. SCHOOOL -argh-

retreat

2005-06-20T19:13:00.000+08:00

seriously i know everyone misses ME, so gonna be me (= ahaa just got back from retreat, woww empowering of my spirit, greater unity within my cell, God is ALIVE in our lives.. alot of tissue used; we murdered too much trees. Joy was still known as de milo xpert among us. we had the angel\mortal game. so sad! i thot i dunt haf but in the end, it was my lovely nicole -HEEZ thru out the retreat, the cell really got v.close together & had total F U N.

annabel was accused as the "zhiren's & junxiang's boxer stealer" uhmmm .. had shampoo session
[ michelle to julie
julie to zhiren
me to david
nicole to jianqing
jasmine did facial for jianqing
bel massaged for martin .. ]
oh at night got girls' talk; we cr a pp again. as usual.
woww who wanna join my cell now ? we haf the cutest guy who did "the peace sign" for his very first time - david lin! i known him since pri one, i din know he was that ever cute. girls start weeping now, zhiren's sick ! =P ohh, we played alot of gamess which r pri school games =\

JULIE SIM says, praise her in my blog. so .. i did ! julie is gd to me, if she treats me. clement praise me too; for my power of 12. so, i nid to praise him now, he's ... nice to joey ! nt to me; he says no dinner for me NOW !
julie bel mich me .. at clement's hse; harass clement =X

loose

2005-06-17T01:15:00.000+08:00

went marking some o'level geog stuff for the church guys. WELL i missed those o'lvl days & geog now in A's is not easy.
esp when gd teachers r snatched =\
watched mr and mrs smith today, lyk what booniEx said, it's fabuloussss.
im falling for ANGELINA JOLIE !
God, the way AJ look at you with her swollen-looking yet ultimately sexxy lips. if i were a guy.. may she be the one on my bed. so sexy, i'm lyk not even a small pea besides her.
brad (as though he's my neighbour) just 'electrified' me for that 5 mins with his eyes. he's old .. old man
enuff of the show. pooled awhile. skills as bad as a newbie. I AM ! tmr hving church retreat; so will be away from this planet earth for days till sunday. dunt miss my entries. NAH it's nt as juicy as ~~xiaxue's~~. ahaa

TALL and short.

2005-06-16T01:28:00.000+08:00

looking throught 1897 blogskins, found like less than 50 which looks presentable, im bored. look through lives of many thru blogging. human creatures are such a wonder, looking at the diff types of emotions found on blogskins. how the heck these people get the idea of e design? big shit. now i feel so small.
de shallow me is like crushed by footsteps of passer-bys. gosh.
late nights
music playing
my days r indeed turning dry.
you said we can, now we cant. full of liars out the world. spend a useless day without any self-improvement. cra pp. the clock is ticking, im off to bed.
one more thing, to jane, i cant send you off, anyway we'll contiune to be bloggers idiots. take care & miss you much.
one more gone
weiwen's turn soon (hate life!)
i tried
to lyk pjc.
hate sch, hate jc, ITE ! ARGHH.

kill Michael Jackson

2005-06-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

ahahaa.
i spend half the day doing work in PJC (drag julie along underage)
EWEEEEE so hardworking
cra pp with uncle weiwen, brought supersoya beanmilk & beancurd for joy.
so i treated myself to vcd ;my big fat greek wedding; at clem's place
there's no ugly women in this world (im preeeeety) but only lazy or poor women. it means im poor then =\ so girls, doll up yrself to present a pleasant image of yrself. even if u heck care, at least give a damn to that zip on yr face. or u will end lyk me. so so so, eat apple strudel with my sister in the middle of the night. she got back her k700i again, she lost it, my parents re-buy it. so we took pictures the entire night. cool* we DONT look lyk sister. one;dark one;white one;malay one;almost jap .. nvm. only one thing that goes identical for both of us, we haf long eye lashes ~~grinss~~* im trying to enjoy the last bit of my hols !
gosh, today i see no sign of grass-jelly boyy ..

the world is unfair for once
cause Michael is not locked up, he must hv bribe the authority =X arrrggggh

oh well..

2005-06-13T21:43:00.000+08:00

a quote taken by booniEx
she once said "eye candies are motivation to go school"
i kind of agreed to it today.
gjb looks cute when he slept in canteen \grins
had art today.
meet tat ~~detestable~~ couple again (suay) jessica went crazy over her energy thingy, me nicole enn weiling went "hmmmmm.." haaha (: nothing much, eat magggee mee (my fave now ?)
went shopping at queensway with my darlin felicia again
it seems like i've almost shopped de entire singapore.
just cant find something suitable for myself =|

days are passing like strangers at the crossroads of life
i cant see i cant feel
i no longer feel the drive of life
is this my life ?
blinded by the veil of confusion

colours by the bay

2005-06-12T23:26:00.000+08:00

(1) pacific mussels (w chilli crab sauce) & man tuo
(2) haylor* bay salad (with scallop!)
(3) some spanish seafood rice
from coffee club r gifts frm heaven. thank God!
sunday sch.
went chillin with my darlin.
we r friends since kindergarden, my best pal (=
town. citylink. suntec. esplanade
gosh, the above dishes frm coff.club are irresitable, u ought to try before u enter yr tomb. u ought to ! indulging yrself into plates of seafood dishes aft a long day of fruitless shopping. man. tt's what i love to call "triple blessings" (= (=
when you're with old friend, the topics just goes on & on. from life to death, young till future. looking out for boyfriend for each other. single to being bridemaid for one another. felicia may our friendship just lasts lonnnng. aint today a great day ?
i have to mention abt my sister today, miss kimberley koh. she reads my blog everyday. & her friend\s too so, welcome to read my blog (: please leave tag, kimb, thnx for stealing my tagboard. tt's all, folks.

haha

2005-06-12T02:23:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAH
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
there's always something good in my life
i shall not die before thursday comes.
kill me ! HAHA (=

die-hard fans of boredom

2005-06-12T00:09:00.000+08:00

jukebox playing:
fall into pieces\ avril lavigne
you can kill me now
sick of boredom
im still thinking how to kill my tml
well well well =\
tmr's event cancelled
people r just too busy for one another
shall nt mention
was talking to my old friends, includin long-lost.
arggggh sian.
life is just a miracle
you will come back to the starting point again & again
can we ever move on ?

awww..

2005-06-11T02:36:00.000+08:00

jukebox playin:
wake me up in september ends
green day

my third blogskin in just 2 twinnee-weeny days
well; bored
lets just see hw long this blogskin will sustain me
is there sweet love aft all ?
chinese songs are pleasant (: (:
i miss.. something

SAVE my energy !

2005-06-11T00:09:00.000+08:00

loving my new blogskin ?
oh please do (:
i woke up and went shopping online, lookin at my burned-completely-pocket ARRRGGGH someone pity me please ! ohh i couldnt wake up for art ;as usual; went late -o0ps- saw gjb. stare. headed for art, drew something so cool & .. i'll scan up asap (= *so proud of myself for one* I CAN DRAW XD went home, gjb supposed to go hm but came back ! so i saw him again. cool. then headed harbourfront.
ate at breekos
waited 3 hrs
shaked hand with kunda, milk & shu wei from
e n e r g y =D =D
dey r cute, cldnt get e signatures
can i not wash my palms ? i took video!
im nt tat crazzzeee, just tat dey r cute.
tmr got voluntary work + service
jess's parents sent me hm !

untitled day w untitled entry

2005-06-09T13:40:00.000+08:00

i just came back from running
one and a half round, round my neighbourhood
woSSHHHHz
fat free, finally
policy of de day: [no sticky fats under my skin -shoo!]
i'll try my best to conquer de fear of drinking grass jelly ! here i come !
xD strews r droppin outta of my brains

bahbabbaba

2005-06-09T10:40:00.000+08:00

awaken by a loud call at 952am
BAAHHHHHHH ....
great thing early in the morning =|
a call from lynette, current CL of guides frm ntss, asking t-shirt design -HAISS- to come to think of it, im an old thing, lucky nt forgotten when dey need help. im old n outta of guides, stuck with odac. uhmmm, can i contiune A levels back in secondary sch ? the life there is simpler n sweeter cause bitchyness in JC beats all !
nvm.
i did not much yest, wake up/ lunch/ nap again/ go great world meet julie/ delifrance + coffeebeanny / clement's hse (disturb him!)/ home. i just know me, julie & clem had a great time bor-bee-BAH together, dunnoe what crap we doin. just luffing at one another xD ;stupid
sum questions was raised in my life. i haf no answers, i tried to seek but i realised it's irrelevant to know em. it aint gonna do anything to my future, its temporary happiness. getti ? dumBMe\\ im waiting for steps to be taken, not by me. c r a pp
and i said, im running later to borreee myseld out. & doin hw [XD incredible ?! me ?! hw ?!]

grass jelly boy

2005-06-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

stuck in my own fantasy
every moment im thinking of my own foolishness
i need music to spice up life
we all haf 24/7
but obiviously im wasting every single bit of it;
drawing near to my death day
oh my grass-jelly boy
look at the two red pimples on yr head
g r i n s
im bored with my life, cant score; cant draw
everyone's running away frm me
2nd day of 2nd week of hols =\
hols seems to draw to an end soon .. urgh`` hw\ test
pressure is stressing than de reality
i need coffeebean tmr, annabel !

regret

2005-06-06T20:08:00.000+08:00

im sooo gonna regret my action
why didnt i check the phone at 315pm today ?
i hate myself today
wen sentosa; palawan today
everyone was burnt xcept me (: (:
[ came quite late; no sun ]
ohh today was a stoney day, fall asleep on the beach
everyone had fun playing volley but me =\
tmr - another goner day

darling !

2005-06-06T00:48:00.000+08:00

mabbe i shld settle dwn for a boyfriend
or shld i say girlfriend ?
im sooooo
boy r so cutee, esp waterboys
i m a o
im bored right nw,
celebrated kok's bdae just nw
i brought kids over to swensens,
& orderd "mr big smile" for myself, kid's menu
im a kid !
went anatoliia to play that italian ice cream
shopp shopp eat eat
& i saw something tat makes me went shut up for a min; adorable; completely ...
you really make me wannw (call u in de middle of the night @!#&*%@%) (: (:
anyway 3-lost-yrs is back. kewl.

reflections

2005-06-03T23:02:00.000+08:00

reflections upon watching another love story golden faith
wOOOOHHhhh `
couldn't it be nice if the world's made of calbury \cut de shit!
LOLX
heyy please watch my boyfriend is type B X100000000 [esp if you're attached]
please do not read it if you wanna watch ...
- your bf keeeping you up immediately when yr heels break by the road
- your bf to help you when you're limping with a broken heel (i dunno hw to describe awww..)
- your bf to repair yr broken heel himself
- your bf to sing you a song with his guitar on the night u first know him
- yr bf who do not mind yr bad-dressing day (i love it!)
- yr bf who help you to trick yr teachers !
- yr bf who loves yr cooking ?
- yr bf who praise you before his ex gf
- yr bf who makes a video of how much he miss you, to the entire world
- yr bf who is willing to take on any challenge for yr sake (= (=

altot lee dong gun still haf alot of unmentioned flaws in the show, i love him lolx lolx lolx .. funny me. heyy, i tink guys shld really learn from him lar, he grips de heart of a girl. nvm, i'll find my true one ... i believe, daniel wu !!!

xactly 80 days to my birthday =D great singapore sale is here, mabbe grab a early present for me first. i need a bf, a car, a house, a swimming pool, smaller stuff lyk, a lappy, an mps (on my way), a digi cam, a bag, a watch ... lolx all to say, happy birthday all june babies like liyi, cherie, KOK GUANG.
ATTENTION, ALL NEWTOWNERS WHO GRADUATED IN 2004, A MAJOR GATHERING AT SEOUL GARDEN, TAKASHIMAYA, ON 12TH JUNE, 2 PM, SUNDAY ! ALL INVITED

....

2005-06-03T21:01:00.000+08:00

im so gonna
quite pissed at the moment at myself
i just realise what i did for the past 2 months was awfully wrong
i made a big misunderstanding now, only i know
but nvm .. so tired
who cares ?
u people r just gonna be gone from my sight in months
big BYE BYE
anyway stop tat stares unless im pretty (which is impossible)
my mind is only for daniel wu, qiyiwu, shawn yue !!!! get me em if u can
pjc guys r such a letdown (altot im nt any better but ... sucks)
ehh ..... bad day cause my running nose open lyk a tap =\
headache throughout, did badly in art
i disturbed seniors !! o0ps dey hate me for life
im irritating to me. nvm. God knows me best (=
n o -l i n k

im so lyk gonna faint

2005-06-02T15:02:00.000+08:00

37.5°c
fever flu cough
dying ! haha
today feeling sick so skipped morning's lecture, gonna watch madagascar later with my bunch of kiddiex -lolx- just wanna summarised my past days ! interesting days.. butt long entries, i suppose. i town everyday ``sian

sunday; 29 may
people i met in town: i forgot
went school to level\ smoothe the ground. dunt ask me why ;i look lyk maid, i guess (= i got my first chi-a novel *so pRoUd of mySelF* then townn with bel, vern, xin, kok & jer. shopp till we became so sad cause the sale discount is so little, what a retail therapy, but me & bel got great offers at ripcurl. bought tops under 20 ! =D then everyone went home. me & jer got so hungry till we decided to din together, ate noodle hut ! wowWW so nice & he owe me money now HAHAA; saw bapok ms liang + sum npcc pple. noodle hut prawn dumplings nood isshhhhhh so yummy !

monday; 30 may
people i met in town: yvette, rachel, qian, boon.
skipped maths lecture & went nicole's hm for ham n cheessy pasta ?!
had geog test *horried\ horrible* went botanic garden & draw for 3 hrs ! me and nicole was captured by many tourists when we sat before plants aft plants to draw. BIG STARS in the future =D the art students then went to catch my boyfriend is type B woowww` nice nice & the plot is so unxpectedly nice ! took tons of neoprints with em & jess, see my my ablum *updated*; !

tuesday 31 may
people i meet in town: jiun bel alishe shiying jocelyn wanxin kathe xiangyang janice huron sharon eileen darren jianwing dom & alot of unfamiliar pjc pple
catched up with the first3 months mates, back-row girls =D only mel chan mel yeo ziqi boon & michelle turned up. ate at sakae. pool. shop. mos burger. pool. met jess on e way hm & take neoprints again =\ oh, tragic thing tt happened, i cut my toe & bleed alot & ziqi was terried\ terrified ! LOLX so cutee of her.

wednesday 1 june
people i met in town: sally
big day ! i overslept & xperienced big storm on the way to skool -bad omen- did art from lyk 1030 till 4, only finished 1 n a half of ceramics, slow me ! me, weiling & jess disturbed many pple & got this jay chou lookalike in my art class, look lyk jay alot ... just tanned. but got gf le. that way he joked & talke is o JAY CHOU. cannot take his pic, pple got gf at aust\ trinity. town again with my fave beef noodle soup. felt so rotten with my bad throat. rotten day anyway. woww ... watched golden faith !

commenting: whats wrong with e rebonded hair, pink thingy, hot babes-wannabe thingy .. im running e fever n headache. the way i see the world, i just wanna pity many but im quite pitiful with my illness too. girls esp, can u just love yrself more ? (= the fashion sense in town is getting horried !

dotxx

2005-05-28T22:17:00.000+08:00

BOY: I saw her today
GIRL: I saw him today

BOY: It seems like its been forever
GIRL: I wonder if he still cares

BOY: She looks better than before
GIRL: I couldn't stop staring at him

BOY: I asked her how things were going
GIRL: I asked about his new girlfriend

BOY: I'd choose her over any girl im with
GIRL: He's probablly really happy rightnow

BOY: I couldnt look at her without starting to cry

GIRL: He couldnt even look at me

BOY: I told her I miss her
GIRL: He doesnt mean it

BOY: I meant it
GIRL: He didnt mean it

BOY: I love her
GIRL: He loves his new girlfriend

BOY: I held her for the last time
GIRL: He gave me a friendly hug

BOY: Then I went home and cried
GIRL: Then I went home and cried

BOY: I lost her
GIRL: I still love him

seriously, i dunt really get any gee-hee from this thingy but it just looks cute, i tend to haf alot of reflections these days. thinking alot ? a guess so, but i dun think i have sort off any. thoughts r just wondering by emself. hey people, get over with life and i miss many outta there. friends, may we contiune to hold on. NEVERMIND im shopping tmr, training my leg muscles to grab the cheapest stuff again ! so, i shall getti. my tummy is developing by 30000 inches after my extra big serving of dinner xD

dark baby

2005-05-28T21:53:00.000+08:00

yess yees YESHH !
school hols for once
heyy, i enjoyed my first day of holiday (:
i went swimming under the hot hottie sun
so shhiioooOOKKK in the water and i sun-tanned
having shitty weird dark (untanned looking) skin colour
nvm, forever gorgeous looking (gorgeeeer .. )
haha, had fun in service
im on for neeon\ order le (:
oh oh tmr great singapore sale the bunch of us, still got guys being our paper bag carriers
sooo, good luck to all chi-O lvl kiddys, As all the way !

xtremely loved by the lord
lord i'll praise youu !

if only e angels ..

2005-05-27T23:18:00.000+08:00

the gorgeous are the ones with brains (=
-jacqueline de genius

can you SEEEEEE how happy i am now; the only one cheering for holidays ?? i bet so AND AND kind of upset too; missing sumthing\ one thing only from school. may youu knoe. my whole holidays is still not packed yet so please pple, keep me occupied so tat i can sense living things' movements ard me =/

Life is short & sweet; my life is sweetened by yr honey-filled encouragement. God, im totally amazed when you tell me white is de combination of seven. My eyes, my ears, my hands, each specially modified under yr careful hands. Mighty Father, may endless praises be raised to the gate of heaven (:

lalalallaa

2005-05-27T23:00:00.000+08:00

My second entry of the day = reflections on life
Situations of life makes me pulling my hair down. Crashing packets of potato chips makes it sounds lyk bombs xploded in front of my enemies. Licking the lollipop tells me there's still something sweet ever found on this round thing (earth) Will i be able to see the next sunrise on the next decade, touchwood* may nothing happen unto me, depression -> IMH -> death bed -> grave !#@^&&$%@@#$ BULLSHIT. was reading the peel fresh label: any fresher; you'll have to peel it yrself (do u get any meaning?) oh my oh my my, cash r flying away into moneyland leaving me in this du-du world, facing songs like "lao shu ai da mi" mouse love big rice ... even facing the fact tat BSB & Spice g. r coming back to stun the entertainment circle. wouldnt it be nice if the world is made of calbury ? i cant shake off this song off my mindd. one prob tat is tangling me with me is why r all the hypocrites tagging me, b a c k off. u people ought to see monsters in the mirrors =9 wateva, A1- like a rose (not so beautiful) im dying, red to black. i just reaslised all tat i wrote is unlinked totally so, no big wunder tat i failed GP; even tot is partially due to the fact she hates me! =\ evil school; evil teachers; evil people *whine hols is b a c k.

the one

2005-05-25T22:25:00.000+08:00

2nd entry of the day (dunt bother to read; its just words \hoOO)
i'll hang, hang upside down myself under the big willow tree & tell myself, that will make me to look things of life in an opposite angle. the stars will be the earth & my sky will be green for once\ grass. i will write down all my problems on each piece of leaf enn place in a glass bottle. the bottle will walk me thru days of life and one day, it will be thrown to the sea. He will pick up, walk thru the forest, sail thru the storms to search for my soul. my shadow will eventually leads him to me. soaking under the sun, smiling to each other, hiding under the bed to tell each other our secrets. on sunday, the rain will eventually wash our memories off, we will forget, forgive & start our journey afreash on monday. we will never know one another again. i will start to haf my first imaginary friend and tell her hw lonesome i feel tot i hv mnay friends. ill tell her times who had but all i hv left was blurr images of tt someone i long. traces of flashbacks will return, my guardian angle lifted up the veil covering my eyes. now, i wanna tell you- its you. it's all about you, baby\ mcfly (=

fairytale was never meant for me.
no longer believing, no long trusting
let it be over.

heey

2005-05-25T21:59:00.000+08:00

can i write this post to particular pple ?? (so sry)
this is to pampers\ pbpua; huihui; jessica; MJ and nicole (=
heyy you girls ! im so touched by each and everyone of youu lar, tot times were so bad for me in college or even life, heyy you guys r dere for me. the msg sent by pau today today was so touching, yeaa friends in college, standing by for one another. upon hearing so mnay things, i guess i just need one good friend compared to knowing so much pple. oh man, life rocks for once ! today had pioneerama & sports heats *cheer* to the only J1 band; u rock =D *triple cheer* to the singer, i love youuuu -r voice; lolx. n i c e d a y, waited for jess to study finish, slept for 45 mins -typical mee-
friend friend
oh man, i love u guys (=
to the rest who really bother to bother abt me, i heart you too.

shitty lifestyle

2005-05-24T23:36:00.000+08:00

tell youu what,
i reach home at ten
now is 1132pm
im having econs essay test tmr
i wanna give up, my teacher ask me to try
christians r nice (=
oh shit`` make shit for me to DIEE
econs is indeed driving me nuts
apparently my dear nicole & i dunn eat nuts
heyy; heyy; school sucks
odac agm today
sucks; so many pple crying =\
recently, odac was nice ??
cause like, lotsa of flashing back times & stuff
i myself were going thru some thinking too.
heyy; life sucks for now
pioneerama tmr - i duunt wanna see youu, awful song!

shit

2005-05-23T14:55:00.000+08:00

shitty post

new layout; love it ?
wen u hv yr friends
cherish em
off to jalan jalan with MJ
-grins\ stupid layout indeed.

work
work
work .. too much
hey! like youu! WTH ?? haaahax.

get on ride with neeon (: (:

2005-05-23T12:37:00.000+08:00

obviously
very obviously im slacking at home
turning on the music loud,
s l a c k i n g
chix` everyone seems so busy
busy with sickness, schoolwork
only me wannna go out & drown myself in the aroma of cafe (:
anyone interested ?
i almost hang up myself when i saw neeon !!
the new creative lovely mp3
my eyes are set on it
tot zen micro was my first love
neeon is a cheaper & lovelier alternative
de clock is ticking; my days r running; i hv no time to waste but sitting dwn for a cup of coffee will do me good. dancing in my own rm, facing de thick pile of workload like some thick butter-jammed bread. uhmmm he's just a boy, im just a girl, when will we bump unto each other ? crossroads of life - - im simply far too bored.

yawnnnn`

2005-05-22T20:30:00.000+08:00

0837pm
sleeeeepy-
guess what, i actually woke up at 6am to go big walk. and i actually walked abt 15km in total today, i ran 1k (: me & needy-phew (weiwen) were like slacking right behind, strolling n dragging our feet. nth much xcept the 50% discount at reebok, typical aunty me will definitely bring helpers to grab the cheapest goods -sound so wrng\ off. today aunty`ness was in me; must be weiwen (he's nt readin this!) & i slept frm 1-6pm. my soles hurt.

im so in the mood for a series of love movies, i feel lyk flooding my heart with tears. feeling so heartbroken -for nothing- i tink i just missed alot of stuff, my nike jack, my friends, my shopping xperience. attention all boring pple, dial me up to call me out for outings k regardless movies, shopping!!, kbox, pool .. wateva u name. i'm totally free in june; what u xpect me to do in june. my school wed got sports carnival -im feeling so off. school ?? =P unless daniel wu or qiyuwu is there ... lolx

the times we hv had =\

2005-05-21T10:40:00.000+08:00

de creation of God - rainbow
will be seen aft de cloud r gone
love life ?

guess what?
i love doing sports till e nuts crack
but nv ask me to compete, i suck at it.
running & SWIMMING
hot faves; just in moods for em
i cant wait for myself to turn into a balls of ugly muscles, just kidding!
love de feeling of wind gashing across yr face;
de water splashing against youu
just love de sun*

can i say something, i lyk odac for once
yest was de day when de seniors step dwn
de guys were makin a big fun outta of it, i wanna tear
nvm; i din
argh- i guessed i'll let dwn all of em
do i look xactly lyk a slacker ? yes; i am !
pleased with myself, enjoying long weekend
life is good for once
im goona do this --> =D

CHEERING!! geog testss r finally over, econs tests r over but one is cuming up (=\) chinese tests im flucking it for the very first time, wat happened to my A2 in o lvl ? PW, im waving goodbye .. G.P. u suck ! ohh, nvm, im hving a long weekend !!!!!!! 3 cheers ..
later
swimming then church - woohs!

humans shld be spending time,
not managing time,
why work so hard w/o a purpose ?

uhmmm..

2005-05-19T22:46:00.000+08:00

Here I am, once again; I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend; Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside; But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

song of my week (=(= tink this week is boring with tons of works & tests BUT i did i major decision - cut my hair real short -grins i cut it twice in 2 days, nt tat im nt satisfied but just, thinner will be better. oh, im online cause doing PW, i tink it really sucks. oh, weekend is cuming, i love em. time to enjoy with my family, friends, God .. (=(= we're going this lame big-walk on sunday, 10 km of walk, i tink we're just for the vouncher ?? big hugs, people, care*

tons of mysteries weirdo stuff, im hanging on ..

a day with high hopes & down fall.

2005-05-16T23:49:00.000+08:00

in my heart, i send a million thanksgiving to all, esp the One.

s u n n y d a y
overslept.
gave lil jasmine & monica tuition.
catch amityville horror w my bunch of budds.
window shop.
crap & bid each other goodbye with love & thousands of missing (:

m o n e y d a ywas almost late for school. sleep during maths lecture. i consulted econs teac. moodswing in canteen then HERE COMES CINDY ! she brought back a big tub of bubbles & we start making n blowing bubbles -grins- yes, im very very very childish but who cares ? im havin fun ?! i was so tied dwn by this irrtating world tat i forgot abt fun. at the end of the day, window shop w jess &&& i left my windbreaker in school. &&& im very upset cause no one saw any trace of it =(
my darling is gone.
so is me.
im going botanic garden;
to draw for art tmr.
big fun ahead *dot dot*

=(

2005-05-15T00:07:00.000+08:00

i thank you* for all these to realise the importance of my God, who can help me. PLEASE u can insult everything out of me, confront me, scold me, bitch about me BUT will you leave my God alone. i dunt care whether u believe there's a Creator behind de scene, but leave my religion alone. i have enuff, thanks for all friends who r there for me. im tired ... im just a ugly girl, why me?
just came back frm service, it talks abt faith, my goodness, exactly for this situation (:
please murder me off the world, to cure yr sick mind (help !!)
will u be the God that knows all the truth before insulting me ?? - no, u cant !

lynette gimme dark choc\my fave today *touched*
mommiEx's day ?
she makes my day .. david, where's my gift ? LOLX

im outta of the world

2005-05-14T12:18:00.000+08:00

a new layout
love weekends (service!)
get over shit*
back to myself
i just realised i was not alone,
i have God. Do you ?
im off to church (:
pardon me for myself in the previous entry.
hais`

just a major post

2005-05-14T10:16:00.000+08:00

THIS POST IS MEANT FOR THOSE WHO HATE ME. (i cant believe i did it for u people)

seriously, what do u really gain at the end of the day after scolding me ?? (: if scolding me can really cease yr bitchy-ness within u, cum n find me personally & scold me for all u want. i wunt cry lyk an idiot before u, pls cum n find me if there's so much of the problem. i got C5 for o lvl english, happy? my friends all know i have the worst eng result everrr... i have heard enough SHIT* of myself from pjc. im just tryin to clear things out here if u guys r looking. call me bitch or wateva.

- you pple say im a bitch
well, i cant do anything abt tat BUT do u know my real person in the first place or it's just rumours frm yr friends' !@#$%@# mouth ?? (:

- i did not wanna join hockey for guys (i'm in odac nw)
yea yea yea, im so desperate for hockey !!!!!??who e hell will join a cca tat she cant make it, just for guys, who may be gone in months ? make sum sense into yr pin-sized brain* now, me & nic decide not to ask because we really dont wanna get into trouble w more teachers, & chances r very little ??happy?? i dunt steal a hockey stick .. *argh*

- i went to hockey match to see guys
oh plz, it's only one match & thurs is my only free day & it happens to be a guys' match. mon + tues = art, wed + fri = odac. i live near delta !! very near !! popping by a hockey match, can make so much !@#$!%@ and i know pple heard of the running away thing, i din run away fast, just went to pick up friends & answer a call .. who de hell will run away frm pple ? if im scared pjc pple to see me, why do i still go & watch the match ?! please, get sum proper sense, sry i forgot u dunt haf, tt's why u hide & hide.

- i want the entire hockey guys' no or wateva .. bitch things
thanks for advertising me before everyone, yes i did approach a guy for no before BUT i just stood dere & stare, jieying did the asking, for another of her friend .. if u dunt believe, just go & ask yangwei (tt guy)for the big truth !!!!!! .. i do not message him & i do not have his no. or mabbe i should get the no. & start selling to his fan club ???

---------
i just wanna clear things once & for all, im lazy and sick of all those supered-extreme rumours tat r going ard and can u believe all the hock girls and sum hock guys know abt it ? even small stuff lyk adding pple at friendster, makes me a bitch. thanks arr .. enuff is enuff lar, i just need peace in pjc. i din know that their brainsr smaller than mine (:
im the UGLIEST girl, yes, i look lyk maid .. has an ugly black bitchy face, infested w pimples, why wanna suan & bitch abt me? what did i do wrong ? u guys r giving a hard time in sch, nt happy, cum & confront me, dun hide yrself behind my tagboard. PJC guys can nv make it. The girls in pjc r even better looking!

munch munch

2005-05-13T00:09:00.000+08:00

BITE youu; yitches aka bit*hes

b nice to em, dey r soft-spoken & gentler pple; loLx. didnt i said this week really rocks? i cant help but screaming out the gd news, i've found my identity back in CHRIST!! im jass a silly girl who finally found God in de midst of all dese shit!!! jass tat; i sense dose rumours, stares, yitching & yawkin is still going on secretly, hey pple, just cum & slap me larh, no point behind my back, im too short [o0ps\ i crack a joke outta of myself]

im too happy 2bother abt all dese yitching stuff, c'mon, life has to go on without ME -de ENTERTAINING hot juicy gossip? what's dere to say abt me ?? -bitch, slacker, lyking yr bf (PLZ?! i haf better taste), ACBC X2 -cute\chio- ... summore laar, act TALL ? c'mon; pls get a life

im happy
so .. who cares ?
i've lotsa of wrk so,
care everyone``

huh

2005-05-12T00:29:00.000+08:00

didnt i said this wk rocks ?
p e a c e `` cause de birds stop yawking !
oh oh oh, millions of thankfulness to God tat i made it to go ODAC today. although we ran 12 rounds on the tracks (4.8km), did 60 pumpings, 60 jumping jets, 60 crunches, 60 reverse-crushes ...., .. sumthing miracle happened -shhhHx-

happy ? yes, i am.
just today, tmr im be dead w/o slp
oh, im greatly infected by itchness & pimples.
MI NA (malay ah lian); im a lookalike what, im gonna say BYE*

BRG ---- back row girls (:
me, nic, mich, mel yeo mel chan, ziqi, qiyin, mc, cindy, sy, boon !! thanks big MUCH

blurrrrr

2005-05-10T20:51:00.000+08:00

dea d. -lyk a petal; unattacted to the rose
nice nick of mine *thick skin*

uhmm uhm, whats going on in my bloody blog again? wateva`` ohh, de week is good ..lalala.. i tink de stares by pple r generally gone, i tink it's cause of my bloody pimples-infected face. YES, after the camp, my face got worse for nuts ! but im in my puberty, i still haf rms to grow (grins* my ht!) and, stop de ~~stares~~.
school is fine, work is managable if only i jia you abit more & try nt to laze ard too much -bleaH, burP (just eaten din)
i miss church, my old friends, BRG ..
^^$##^&@#$@%^$$!@#$%^&
#@#@#$%&^*&&*%#$@^&^
@$$$@@$^&*&#&*#@!

b o r i n g ``

booboooooooo

2005-05-09T17:16:00.000+08:00

---- de sky will be cleared.. one fine day
lurve will come; running after me.. chasing aft me
lady of peace will hide under my blanket
telling me, i'll be fine (: --- jacq

currently at art rm. stealing time for usage of com. pon econs makeup lect, waiting for ms jessica lolx` improving my art tooo, yes one slow draw & teacher said -okay- poor chap jes, redraw 5 times .. *think skinned is talented* /ahem -heex- im talkin abt myself !!
just came back frm odac camp. not bad. better than i xpected but damn tiring loh =( im totally 'shagged'. im kissing all my sandflies bites now, pain & itchy !!!

first day
i skipped sch. went doc. doc says eat de first medi, if eye swollen due to allegery, change to the 2nd medi. my right eye really got affected, SWOLLEN. so .. went camp tat way, SCARED EVERY1 (: den, we had solo night, all sleep at individual spot .. i slp before LT1 .a l o n e. & most guys slppe before the haunted girls' toilet alone too, lolx. but i can see my friend at de other end.

second day
at 5am in the morning, we got fire drill so .. yea` then had PT before i wash my teeth lar. set off for ubin, track the entire day from 9am to 7pm .. TRACK, really just walking with 3 litres of water on my back. my group tracked wrong 2twice .. we ate little due to our great cooking skills, we burned rice. had a great odac night (: my group N2 (enthu) sang twinkle twinkle lil stars in wong fei hong tone & chi opera, damn enjoyable ..

third day
woken up by thunder storm at 5am again .. run for our life, for shelter, shivering in cold, i was missing mummy on mummy's day !! rain stopped & i went back to slp, track back to jetty .. got drenched by rain again .. got back to school, settled down, cleaned up & washed up .. & ODAC went cck lot1 for lunch. really back to civilisation (quoted by oliver)

i sensed the desperateness for coke, aircon & bed .. mabbe MAID (i dunt haf) .. tough`enjoyable` now what .. hockey or odac, i think hock is really hard, i may not be able to get thru the teachers =\

u were there when im secretly missing u (:

bitch

2005-05-06T00:51:00.000+08:00

3rd entry of de day
1am in the morning
skipping school tmr
~~hate school~~
hatee u!
is my taste too good \ too c'mon
i see "my things" almost every'w; s'pore is just so small
im a bitch; so is everyone (:
feelin so much better aft bloggin, i love bitches, sluts, metros, gays, homo, bungs ...
not tryin to b funny but, it's _ _ _ (cant tink of any word) to be on the same earth as u guys =D
de world can b round & happy, for once.

choco . ...

2005-05-05T23:39:00.000+08:00

bitter-est day of my life
050505
i nv felt this sense of lost fur a very long tym
i wanna make myself sick, very sick
vomit` shivering` cough` sore throat` constipation` wateva u can name
i rather feel pain than bitterness ..
was walking to purmei to pass sum stuff
feelin so ... sucky thru out
munching on my dark chocolate
bitterness comes to a clearer state in my mind, dark chocolate is almost sweet to me! im just to bitter dwn in my heart
darkest hr of life has cum
im self declared- dead
just lyk a petal; unattached frm the rose
lifeless
clueless
meaningless

one day, everything will be over (:

raining

2005-05-05T16:50:00.000+08:00

050505
rainy days are a chore but it's nice
trying to get rid of "BITCHES" in my eyes
cause im one to many pple now.
im labelled as a bitch !
san ask me a big quest, "why do i want hock"
i dunt tink i have a good ans
i know i suck for nuts, for once
i make a big fool of myself and drop into a puddle of misunderstandings
i threw my entrie face into a pool of mud today.
there's no way i can make any better reputation of myself anymore
when will the sky be blue again ?
odac camp tmr =\
may i die before tat
i tink i better die, it's such a waste of resources to haf me ard
s u c k s
sry 2 jess, meiyi, mingjiao, drag u guys dwn for nuts ..

sucks

2005-05-03T22:38:00.000+08:00

bullshit;
you're such a jerk !
i hateee you but who cares ?
btw, the him and the me r less than a metre away from him
i want my baggie !
short entry.
nth to say but .. you're XXX over my heels ! *insane

it's just a mile away

2005-05-02T12:38:00.000+08:00

the post mensus syndrome is comin against my way
shit it !
everything just dunt seem to get right
i nid tym to tink thru; i dunt haf
im searching my soul, lookin fer an answer
drawing nearer to de darkest hr of my life
...

lifting up my pencil, i cant even draw
scatches r all over de heart
i saw her face in de mirror
blood is flowing dwn her eyes
the sadness, the grief in her ..
the hatred she had for everything
why isnt all the knots of life, untied ?!
you cheated on me, arent u happy?
the feeling of stabbing right thru yr heart
i rather jump into my grave
somtimes, running in the rain willl drive away all totx
finally i just wanna say
i haf no courage to tell u ..

06 06 06

2005-05-01T10:33:00.000+08:00

when im mad; im really mad !!
i guessed im mad abt myself, getting fusedup totally by just a small matter. im feelin ultra depressed, the big and the small me. i hate myself being so tensed up, crazy over .. #$!!@~$$^@#%^^%$ life is getting ridiculous for me.

mummy.
money.
quarrels, quarrels ..
can heaven just pour sum money dwn to stop all dese ?

i hate to see my mum's angry face, why cant she b a lil more understanding, why cant she be in my shoes? people's parents understand, why can she ? im not blaming her, im blaming myself to be so drifted away from her ...
mummy, i really wanna tell youu - i love u (:

06

2005-04-29T22:22:00.000+08:00

" de expected comme along when youu least xpect it "
-jacq- (haaHHa!)

from de start of now, i'll start loving being tanned, de no. 06, yellow and black colour (:
eeeeewKs my eye candy is soooo cute (de only person tat is cuter than me) xP yesssh! im uttering shit once again.
quite a happy day, managed to catch him at canteen and i CUT my hair ! it's so so so much thinner then e usual hair bush.
joke of the day: there's this long stratch of road tat students haf to walk from bus stop to pjc a.k.a. sahara desert! so my friend said tat her hair is as thick as bush & may catch fire if she pass by sahara *hahahaha

yes, i'm pretty bored now. finally the long weekend is round de corner -really need a break- oh, i really really cannot stand bitches, stead n break & dye n rebond & mini-skirts & .. FLIRT !! worst of all, i still cant believe my ugly clsmate is a freelance model. she must haf paid e company. EVIL ME!

oh dearr

2005-04-28T23:10:00.000+08:00

ohH dearrrrr.
a thousand of, millions of, "of dear !"
my pin-sized brain is only filled by one matter nw. this is bad laar and makin my studies kooler cause i gott 0 for my second maths test. i gott full marks for first test so this gonna make it 50% -soproudofmyself-

i dunnnoe what to say here in blog; so much 2say but afraid =\ oh oh, i cant read much of u guys entries cause i got no tym, only can update my blog le. eeew\weeeHz\laaar e end.

*pls lay yr fingers on de piano feeer me !
cause a guy who plays piano, ish so sweet !

(:

2005-04-26T21:05:00.000+08:00

rainnny days will pass by youu sooon; with God's grace.

yea; was watching a show, the girrl was commenting tat even if the food she cooked together w her hubby, is burned .. it's the xperience dey shared tt dey matter -sweeet- i just hoped i get stucked into such sweet stories than de bad traMAAAS i get in school. why do everyone thinks school sucks ? nothing wrng w anything, neither teacher, neither wk load ---> it just sucks. i dont lyk it either.

hopin much tat i can stop failin econs =\ my teacher ish too cute & i cant bear to hurt her. oh, there's also sum hockey issues, if only me & nicole can get in .. *wishin* yes; i know this is an unfinished entry but who cares ?

my worst day

2005-04-20T21:07:00.000+08:00

today is my worst day in my whole entire college life, i started to go against my form teacher, complained against him & LOLXX he got pissed. great; im gonna have a good comment on me at the end of the year !
i hate this bloody ass freak in my school, just named him ( S H A M E L E S S ) creature, my goodness, he thinks i like his friend when i only add tat guy over friendster. my goodness .. he's nut-case & go around tellin in front of everyone and i, myself too overheard him. ASS; dunt u think he's a retarded .. i think his brain is smaller than an ant's and not to insult him, he shld just drop outta n go poly. staying back wunt make him any better. i hate freaks, esp childish ones.

quoted frm my long-last fren; life so tough to move on, fight for your place, be recognized, be satisfied.

baby dont run !

2005-04-17T12:10:00.000+08:00

i've made sum mistakes in my life
is there another way ?
i'm gonna carry on; hard

bOO cha* lolx, sry i like to make tat "sound" quite often these days. sorry sorry, i know i nv update for a million days. school r too busy for me but i had some good news n gossips -lolx-

sch had movie week, so i stayed on to watch "shutter" on thurs. but e usual timid me, only watched like 80% of the sub titles. i covered my eyes .. and together w my buds, we screamed n yelled when others do (:
i went this school overnight prog called night jaunt last friday. we went to night safari (my first time); old changi hos; red hse; geylang; changi vill; esplanade + + the transexuals r ~~SCARRRRY~~ man, we've to stay on bus, teacher scared we will provoke em. there's one s-him who revealed her bust to us !!! o my goodness, she knew we're looking at em so she . . . xD disgusting yet a kewl xperience duh. OCH n red hse were borrring; nt happening but my friends took pic. they tot they could see sumthing =\
went east coast; geylang; nus prata shop and tiong bahru market eat throughtout. lolx*

then watched "de pacifier" with buddy, omg, i luff lyk an idiot. catcha 3hr nap then headed to service. so many things, got new phone and was awarded with a bai-ka foot after my night jaunt. im not in hockey, in odac =| my life

=\

2005-04-12T22:35:00.000+08:00

cut de crap & just start luffing at yrself ?
totally feelin =/
as usual, this is a very private entry unless youu really know my stuff well
the more i wanna know about youu, the worse i felt that im further away from youu. i never wanna know so much of youu but things seems gettin worse. lucky God was always good & faithful, had a few goody buddies ard to live my life well as usual. do youu even know ? i bet youu dunt. anyway, i miss hockey, im in bloody odac.

i just wannna sing ...
It's all about you
It's all about you, baby (X3)

Yesterday, you asked me something I thought you knew. So I told you with a smile 'It's all about you' Then you whispered in my ear and you told me to, Say 'If you make my life worthwhile, it's all about you'

And I would answer all you're wishes, if you asked me to.But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what I'd do.So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.

sorry ..

2005-04-06T20:25:00.000+08:00

big SORRIE =X
to all fans of my blog
school is exciting with trials and so on .. make alot of buddies (: my today i went 3 trials -kewl- and i'm really tired & i stinked up the bus with my soulmate. my soulmate is jer's pri mate, we live at same area so we went hm together heEx* and we gotta the same taste for guys /celebrities lyk DANIEL WU, shawn yue, energy .. she says she gonna check out my pjc eye candies (lolx, it's almost close to zero) i went hockey. PJC HOCKEY ROCKS ... WE LOVE OUR GAME their sweater is so cool, my class is makin sweater too (: i was sort of put on hold on waiting list, nicole honey got in .. great for her.

then i cheong to O.D.A.C, lying the idiot president that i go find art teacher tt's why late, the odac people ran lyk more than 5k .. lucky i escaped, they gave very harsh physical fitness to force people out =S i managed to got thru & got higher chances cause i'm in there for first 3 months. but i prefer hock/ oh eye candy ! *bullshit*

my idiot classmate stole my stuff, i was so upset, small things she steal but my buddy joanne stole it back for me. my stationaries got my name on, dunt play with me oh, school is quite cute. my econs tutorial teacher looks lyk an auntie who sells woks in ntus, she kind of sucks =P who cares ? i'm gonna study on my very own self (jia you)
oh btw, i feel kind of sad for ntss XXX particular cca, they got so famous because my crescent buddies knew of em cause they scored single digit throughout 2005's competition. new town is famous for such disgraceful stuff .. hais`

heavy rain ..

2005-03-31T16:36:00.000+08:00

firstly,
HAPPY 17 BIRTHDAY MICHELLE CHOW !!
you are seventenn years old, oh my gosh, you are getting older but prettier *crossing fingers* /kidding laar. May the Lord contune to sprinkle love upon yr life & yr family + incuding me LOLXx` (bo ho choy) ;May yr poly life be smooth-sailing and pleasant throughout and be able to enter the university of yr own desire =D

yes, i know it's been 267372373 years that i have come to type a long entry so please, let me do a account of my past few days. As everyone knows, i'm back in PJC, taking my fave 3 sub -geog econs art- & the most scarry sub -maths- yes, 4 A lvl subjects =D i dont't know why the school give it to me but yea, i deserve it ?? oh so, due to my heavy work load, i do not think that i can come to update frequently like before so .. i send my apology to all. i will be going to tennis trials tmr and applying to be a counsellor, all my clsmates all trying ( for fun laar )

my new class A06 is cool ! classmates r nice n friendly, unlike the first 3 months .. (other than BackRowGirls*).
orientation was kind of boring, but we tried to be enthu ! we tried ! LOLxx, funny small talk; my librarian mdm jacqueline lee who i think is almost 50 yrs old, she sucks & is well known as the great white shark. So, one of our orientation game was to take a picture with her or sum stupid games. our class guys became daring & all of us walked to the librarian & asked for a picture with her. Guess what ? she was like "why me ? why me ?" lolx, she looks hot that day with heavy makeup. mass dance & fun dance was the hyper medicine everyone took =D water games were cool, enjoyed myself quite alot. my next 2 years - pioneer junior college -

today, there was a downpour so we borrowed umbrella, even if it's 2 pple share one, we were totally drenched when we reached home so .. yes, do not skip makeup lesson even if u dont have to go. LOLxx .. spend some drying up myself at heeren loo, even brought socks ! on my way home, i heard the song "graduation". tears flowing in my eyes, these paste 4 years really passed very soon. the friendships .. oh man, buddies, i love u all ! *hugs hugs*

):

2005-03-27T00:43:00.000+08:00

to that particular someone (i warn you *but he most prob will nv get to read this entry )
):
at this rate, i'll die when i next see you. keep having false-alarmed heart attacks. i'm alreadee trying to run away from youu .. u "evil" ! do you have any idea yr move actually stopped my heart tat moment, so scarrry .. evil you, why make me suffer lyk that now. yr shadows r running after my small penny life. just take a good look to yr eyes. (ARGHH!) i'll find hundreds over of eye-candieeSSS to replace you. ha ha ha ha

digital jacqueline aka. d;jaCq really wants to fly to her own digital world, a world she has created just for herself. i'm dreaming alot today =\ i'm being selfish at this moment, but i know the game called infatuation is not fun. dunt play so i'm fully awared tat i'm not gonna touch it for 2684847 days cause i noe i can nv be married off. *a good relieve for my mum, she has sumone to take carre of her entire life span. i can be a nun .. waiting for God's calling. WHAT AM I TALKING TODAY ?? see; this man drives me mad. i need depression\or.erasing-shockmoments pills ;offer me some. oh, i love what i love &my lovely pencil case too. pokki-dots*
i'm not talking any sense today. entry erased from current reader's brain. brain-scan processed .. 1 .. 2 .. 3 .. the fats is that what am i talking? that's what u write in wee-hours (:
i'll pick myself up for God. Thank you for yr death tat was in exchange for my breathe. He rather go to hell than to go heaven without me (:
have a good -good friday- & happy easter day
sijia: love yr choco eggies !

cute cute cute !!

2005-03-24T19:00:00.000+08:00

=i
i'm lack of fun.
pjc first two days orientation so sianz; talks after talks then sum more talks. i can sleep with eyes wide open. i bought school uniform at a set at $10, they selling the old stocks ;lolx. i can finally dirtied my black skirt & nt fear of ~~menstruation~~ stain =P orientation tee looks great! lao qi; i miss you, may God allow yr appeal to be sucessful. there's about 999 other J1s in my school tat i can know. NO SHUAI GE; sux .. lolx i go jc to study but my eyes still quite sensitive to surrounding. my OG grp got this shy shy fairfield guy, he's so cute ! so shy; wear blue braces (i called him bluetooth) then we danced together. i'm so noisy then he's so shy .. lolx *did i scared him away ?* he look lyk a small baby, baby shawn ! funny, OG got also one guy so funny, his laugh is influenatial .. his laugh will make me laugh. oh, got new fun dance, quite cute larh, retro kind. got those shake lyk mad one, but dance partner going to other cls .. oh =i he's so shy .. & i succesfully scared him away. JC life offically starts now !

boO !

2005-03-22T23:36:00.000+08:00

really a big fatt bOo !
bOo boO !!
see ?
i'm mad. did manage to get up the way i want to cause lee xinyi wakes me up (ARGHH !! r e l a x); just to check wart dumb place i end up to. but proudly to announce i got into the best poly -hWacHong poly- kidding larh; i got into pioneer junior college again. lyk tat ? HCP: opened for all who love me (i bet there's none other than God.) may handsome`young`charming`looking guys flood pjc but slim chances; cuz i scared em' off =O

~~CUT DE CRAPP~~
went to watch the powerful, exciting, incredible, awesome, (!!!!!) match between NTSS n yishun sec. oh man; the guys were twice the size of ntss guys, they r fat & tall. got one cute & soft guy, one head taller than martin *faint* but cannot make it in his skills. michelle & jasmine were the most xcited spectators; screaming\ yelling\ jumping (actually all of us were quite anxious). imagine the the last 3 mins, the ball suddenly stucked at the corner of the loop as if time has stopped. i really felt time stop ;kewl arh ?

went essential brew for food, a great day, if only, if only it rains. really a nice place to chill out at. waitress there looks pathetic, working alone upstairs & stares at wall (mabbe talk to it?) cause we were the only customers. crap alot as usual, found out tat guys who r supposed to be good turns mean =i
i sense hopelessness among the guys. anyway love my new skin ? i love to hear his music too but arghh.

diary

2005-03-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

stay out;
i want to be alone
choy, choy, CHOY ! today no longer haf such feelings lyk yest, i'm grown up & i've think thru .. this part of life may not even be a memory of mine when i turned old (:
today being the official last day of skool, i really wanna wished all, a blessed journey for their entire future, may their days be filled w laughters & love. started my day with taking pics; kind of sad .. den kris gave me, mich, bel each a decorated pillow as a form of blessing or gd luck ?? it's cute ! *hehe*
oh, then had movie for G.P again, ate up econs lesson .. uhm` life is good. nothing much exciting about today le, tmr is the day of posting results :D just hope they will put me in a good choice ..

i washed away de tears, turning my back against you, hold the heart tat was about to shatter, i almost break down. it's youu .. the you tat i'm gonna kiss goodbye to. wave goodbye, all i wanna say was goodbye (: the worst part; you dunt even noe hw i feel

dunt you feel the love .. ?

2005-03-20T22:51:00.000+08:00

2nd entry of the day
"True"

I wont talk, i wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think i dont look
But deep inside, in the corner of my mind
Im attached to you, im weak, its true
cause im afarid to know the awnsers
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life, to cross this line
To the only thing thats true, so i wont hide
It's time to try, anything to be with you
All my life i've waiting, this is true ..

You dont know what you do, Everytime you walk into the room
Im afarid to move, Im weak, Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too? Do you even know u met me?

I've waited all my life, to cross this line
To the only thing thats true, so i wont hide
It's time to try, anything to be with you
All my life i've waiting, this is true ..

I know when i go ill be on my way to you
The way thats true

*** srry; kindly feeling .. im having a flu ): feeling very terrible now, with the company of this love song ``turning mad in moments. pretty true; i'm indeed weak. shattering into pieces soon. is there a way for me to see the rainbow, at the other end? not just advice, i'm yearning for directions for this life. ease the pain`` every part of the song is so true & i'm turning mad !! ~~running away from you~~ `dunt u feel the love ?

i'm mad

2005-03-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

chAR char CHARRRRR ..
im mad lar; but overjoyed too
had a 17hrs sleep, i almost couldnt wake up (so nice to roll on bed)
im in the season of love wor, visited two weddings, woohoo` congrats to dem !! the best part was the exchange of vows (eternal bliss to dem!! ) the guys n the girls were helpin out at tat beautiful church .. stole the roses after tat =i it was an almost pink wedding .. we have to be in pink (ARRGGH) pink is horrible but not for de wedding

oh, on fri & sat, i went crazy for tat cheap ZEN mirco but singaporeans r completely mad, hundreds slept over for only 50 units of it, i rather buy at the higher price but ZEN is so so cute, yes i'll wait patiently for it to drop its price (:
z e n ` it's adorable
posting results cuming out on tues -uhmmm- God bless all budds tat he places u in a place u'll love too.

can you believe ?

2005-03-15T22:42:00.000+08:00

draagin myself outta of the bed wont make the day great (my zzz`logic) NEVER draaaag yrself, just let de habit of gettin up late goes on & on ;just kiddin. i cant find this halter top in the morning and i started searching and packing me clothes over n over again, i wake up half an hr earlier but i became late eventually due to tat missing top =i went K-box and gave a time of ear-torture to my BRG budds; must go with zqi n qyin; they r good (saw wini at cine!) dunt tink why i wore so casual, im headin to de beach :D there was no sun arrrrrgh* (cant tan much) and today was the last da day for monorail (or tmr ??) kind of sad but singaporeans do nid aircon. we're bored to tears on monorail & we played fris-bee; first time feel tat it's fun cause we r crazy pple. me\ nic\ mich had a great time on the BIGGGIE cheese ... dumb us; =P
guys who really wanna see beach girls, try the toilets, it's just TOO much for me to take it, i guessed yr nose will bleed grins-
wwwooooho` shopping tmr\stayin over @ julie's

dreamworks motion pictures presents ... ME !

2005-03-14T15:50:00.000+08:00

the crappin me is back again (welcum welcome)
jacqueline in DA house =D
like my new layout; style arh ?
i'm pretty high mabbe due to the food i eat yesterdae *o0ps

an account of what i did yest ..
i was practically a taitai the whole day loh; oh i'm enjoying being one. (xcept my mode of transportation =i) i went for bible study lesson (aka taitai's cooking lesson) then i went to the sunday school to help out (aka the taitai charity work) then i went town (TAITAI LOVES TO GO THERE TO HAVE TEA BREAK! ; so do i)
bel, mich, yihui, vern, jerold, eddie & taitai-me went to billy bombers (so taitai) to have our lunch; this is socializing. go there and eat u people, the waitor forgot to add taitai's & jerold's meals into the bill ($50 loh) dumb people; but i lyk it so saved money for eddie it was HIS treat (:

then along with my mahjong girlfriends, we toke neoprints & met pple lyk paris hilton; ~~im crappin~~; just 2 pink ah-lians .. oh mine, we only opened up the curtain to check if they r done & they called us "bit*h" =i & tat typical ah lian (who draw her eyes black) went over to knock us, guess what we do -hao tong ar loudly- oh my gosh loh, they dun deserve to be in town, shld be in chinatown instead. but the result of out neoprints r still nt bad

the taitais then headed over to paragon for tea-break @ coffee club, we went sinning over the choc fondue (?!!!!) yummy* then again, it was another treat by jiaxi .. first time in my entire life, i paid not a single cent on food during a whole afternoon, in town life is great being taitai !

2005-03-14T15:45:00.000+08:00

yea, we r cool ar ??

boulevard of broken dreams ...

2005-03-11T16:20:00.000+08:00

miss me? (yes, we do!)
hello, i really hv nothing much to say; actually i do lolx; i miss all of you ! having said of tat, lemme just brief thru about my disappearing days. i had a week of wonderful hols & now during the JAE, now i'm hving one offical sch hols again (life's good!) term 2 gonna start, release of postin r drawin near, friends leaving =| new friends of diff backgrds r cumin .. i had a good first-3 months (:
back-rowgals!! i'm gonna miss min ci (no. 2 lao er); cindy; mel chan; but esp (they're leaving *sobs) BOONiE!(no.8 lao ba); my punk`gal -ziqi (no.7 lao qi); my kbox buddy -qiyin ; no.1 (lao da) siying ; granny yeo -mel yao
life's gonna be tough w/o em', lost de meaning (jk), we had good memories (!! yes, we do)

.. hw me & boon run out of G.P. class
.. hw boon, min ci, ziqi & me shake de trees in de sch field *~~inside joke~~*
.. hw me & mel chan suan alex
.. hw me, qiyin & ziqi got shocked after huron performed his tricks
.. hw lao'da came in & spiced up BRG
.. hw me & cindy becum shoppin' buddies
.. hw mud-rock was formed ~~05A03 inside joke~~
.. hw BRG detest the front-row gals (sum pple r nice la ..)
a lot & a lot =| i missed this class of fun.

this song came to my mind; all things in life do cum to an end
we had joy, we had fun,
we had
seasons in the sun
but the hills that we climbed were
just seasons out of time
(: friends forever
P.S must rmb to invite me to yr wedding -keep in touch-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNABEL TMR !!(12/3) & MY BELATED SWEETIE JASMINE !!(8/3) =D

running bare naked

2005-03-04T15:59:00.000+08:00

:(
tt's my mood at the moment
im waiting for a right time to do my jis, afraid my singpass get rejected (ARGH!! ) i hate MOE & i love jasmine, she lodged a complaint woww tt's lyk, a action done by an angel .. (jk;)
right now, i need .. um ..
; a good bath
; sum pictures to look at
; tv prog
;a tea from essential brew
; a shuai ge ( LOLXXX )
; lookin forward to swimmin tmr, burnin useless fats away

today i start my day with JIS, tt sucks, im nt gonna talk about it so ya, went out with clsmates to watch "a series of unfortunate events" liam aiken =D all the aikens r so good looking, okay i admit, baby sunny is the cutest. (anna looks lyk her, if u know whose anna) i dunno, then we ended up at takashimaya toys area .. hahahaah, im buying up the whole of tat sylvantan families, my husband-to-be, i dunt need diamond, just that whole set please ?? a room in our hse for that model .. *greedy me* i dunt hint tat for bdae cause, i rather get a big & ex one than small & ex.

life will still go on even when you're hurt

2005-03-03T15:59:00.000+08:00

(:
surprised tat i'm fine, yes im fine
after stupid days of thinking, yea, o'lvl is no kick
i'm serious.
haha, it's not gonna be part of my memories when i turned 70 =P
oh these days cant online & im lazy to. let's just talk about places of interest in s'pore

yest i went ngee ann poly to accomplay bel n mich to look at courses, well ny is hot ? very, no shelter, aint a gd place (o0ps; no offences to all lookin forward there) then i went holland v, one of my fave places in s'pore. Yes; it's not much of an interesting place but we found a nice & cosy tea cafe there { essential brew } sounds quite classic uh ? it's nice, we gotta take off yr shoes n put in the drawers provided when u go upstairs. & first time in my life, i'm learning to appreciate TEA .. a lot to learn, nice place to study cause there's a lot of ITE students studying, makin freakin much noises when im tastin my lemon gress + jasmine tea (argh ?!!)

today arg, i planned to go sentosa with my pri sch mates but due to rain, we went to eat dim-sum buffet (HAHA!) nice u noe, it's great, everything was lyk made with prawns, yummy !!! but my stomach had sum probs, i cant eat much & we ordered alot --grins-- e usual me. then went sentosa after rain poured, i looked lyk michelle ??? haha, i used her islander card for entry -free- and her pic was on it .. yea man, sisters in christ looked alike. i realised many pple r there, alot sajc & pjc kids r there but i nv see, sentosa is BIG at last (mean me!) yea, tat's almost for the day .. uhmm, lotsa of catching up w old pals, they r being physco by me to enter PJC *2 thumbs up* for myself -_-" (lolx!)

P.S being the smartest girl in town, i send my apologies to sharmaine, sharlene, mich tan & many more that i do not know how to leave a not in yr diart & now i finally DISCOVER ! o lvl shocked my body cells ..

la la la la . .

2005-03-01T15:59:00.000+08:00

whatever will be, will be. today is kind a bad day but how bad can it be when im still alive, kicking, swearing, cursing etc. i did badly, to my own xpectations, but still thank God cause i passed amaths with C6 (im v proud of myself) seriously, i was sick for my both e. & a. maths papers so, i dun care, i've passed it. the journey to school was freakin long, prayers were hard & anxious, results turn out BAD, i guesses tsunami attacked the sch hall, there were shortage of tissues going on. flooding went on for quite sum time, uhmmm .. i was one of the participates. =( i only can go 3 jcs ?? so, im staying back in pjc.

taken from constantine & bible => GOD HAS A PLAN FOR EVERYONE OF US
isaiah 49:16 "See, i have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me." (:

& im finally nervous -argh-

2005-03-01T15:52:00.000+08:00

time checked: 1143pm, 28th day 2005, monday
i guessed my heart is really running around the house ARGGHHH!! time is running out, my tears r flowing outta of my heart, oh man this is the kind of feeling u get when u r waiting for o's results. God, im only 2 hrs plus away from this terrible piece of paper tt gonna determine my future (Lord, save me!) do i sound desperate enuff? i hope i do ..
God replied "what's done, it's done, i'll help u". haha i created tt myself but He will & he promises (:

we watched the international festival of magic "all stars performance" last night at kallang, what can i say about it ? w o n d e r f u l very fun & amazing, it's magic * stayed over at clement's (9 of us) in tt samll lil room, lolx, cosy ar? we tried to avoid result the whole day, crappin thru out esp over tt thingy on sunday times cover=> C.C.G (created by NTSS student, i can see hell gate opening up) is really "what the hell is going on" C.C.G means cute cute guy o.O nvm, ntss is amazing too. uhmm, nth much to say, good luck to all my budds n myself ='( God bless all!

burn burn BURRNNN ...

2005-02-27T15:59:00.000+08:00

campfire's burining, campfire's burning, draw nearer draw nearer !!
hey, welcome to the ex-guides' campfire 2005 =P
im kindly feeling "high" at the moment, i went completely insane at ntss guides' campfire. woAAHH* i feel hot cause` it's [PASSION]; their theme
whether good or corrupted, tt's not up to me to say, i'm neutral (tryin hard to be one) but i did enjoyed myself a lot with all my budds' company. so much ex-guides went back but they got quite disappointed, their xpectations were high, mabbe i was a bad leader (iwas!) nv pass down what im supposed to, sorry fellow guides i suck =P
oh, but good la, got sushi as refreshments but taste .. okay la (: not much to complain but the Xs had fun time, got singing competition, obviously will lose right ?? just for the sake of fun*

it seems lyk there's lotsa of internal conflicts going on in guides, am i true ? haha, no matter what, good luck for their future, hope they choose the right CL during the pass-over, i trust u guys' taste. hahaa, o0ps, results drawin in less then 100 hrs -uhmm- having a stayover at bel' tmr, we'll chat about life again .. hehe nice *anxious
many r still deciding poly/ jc %uhmm ...

[add on]
on friday, we played musical shair in lt2, cute right ? see PJC is fun, min ci was poisoned by the sandwiches i made, haha .. ntss bball lost to cat high (they sucks, *cheater-bugs)
new DISCOVERY? my mummy invest a lot on chilli sauce, i got sweet, hot, garlic, hainanese chicken rice one, xtra hot, with soy sauce one .. uhmm o.O ;im h.o.t, lolx

a gd morning

2005-02-27T05:10:00.000+08:00

puzzz
had a whole morning making my new layout
hi! sorry that i gotta moved to a new site, if not, i'll nv be able to get this beautiful layout. oh man, the previous html of the previous site was bad, i cant change template at all. anyway i'm heading church & gg campfire later. oh .. update anytime
just to say tt im alive & kicking =P

special me !

2005-02-25T12:20:00.000+08:00

okay; i cant think of anyway to greet pple
i'll be nice, "gd morning" (:
im slacking at home, currently at 12pm, thursday morning
little ms-always-mc skipped school today (tt what my cls mates call me) *v.guilty* but i cant stand schooling all the way till 5pm
these few days was quite nice, filled with yami yoghurt, i eat everyday after temptation on sunday & monday. lolx.

on tuesday i watched ntss bball match with my saints` mates & classmates. oh my cls mates loved it, it was v exciting !! NTSS won ! then i went orchard
on wednesday aka. yest, our school got sum smart & casual wear. all the people wear till so, plz la, not fashion show =| oh, we watched annabel's literature play, sum shakespears' 12 .. dunno what, but it was AWESOME !! lolx, entertain my boring day, oh we went orhard again to watch RAY ..uhmm.. nice nice, nc-16, drug references but it's a good show for pple who appreciate music (:
my day end with a long chat till 11:15pm with friends, a great feeling! having anxiety for o level results sia, oh no, i even dreamt of o lvl results argh* what's wrong with me ??

my reflection: youngsters ar.. nothing to say, why do they think tt they r mature enuff to handle their probs. get over it man, u guys r still kids (me too!)

sweetened memories x)

2005-02-22T12:19:00.000+08:00

ke-baoOO00*
today is my first monday tt i hv no blue. i was wearing MGS uniform today with nicole(slut*y + bit*y) pairs of eyes were staring at us, seems lyk gonna confront us in any moment. & of cause i'll stay calm n cool cox i alreadee tot of hw to defend myself in all situations but =( no one dares to lay a finger on us ...

oh yest i went to watch "a moment to remember", shld i say gd\ bad things first. okay GOOD, i hav a great time cause the show rocks -grins- it's so touching, lovely and romantic. BAD, im always being laughed at for crying the loudest .. ha ha ha funny meh ? (i dunt think so) horrible xperience, dunt watch with me, just treat me, i can watch alone

uhmm, michelle nv come sch today, pls tell me u will come tmr ? oh, results drawing in DAYS so let us pray !!!!
i really pity those type of particular people, living life lyk nobody's business, claming things tt they dont own .. seem happy outside but inside, e m p t y. i know down de streets, they r plently full of dem but v poor thing. young young, but dunno what's purpose of life. Fun\ fun\ fun ... all they only care. really feel lyk giving them a wash in machines frm laundry shop, so many teenagers. we, as humans shld start living lyk one, not regretting things u do when u turned 70 yrs old (:

in life, it's nt the pple, music nor de time, it's God who matters ....

a love title

2005-02-20T12:19:00.000+08:00

it's nt the pple, music nor atmosphere ... it's God who matters ....

jukebox playin" unwritten by natasha bedd.
current lurvesong" since u've been gone by kelly clarks -this is good-

my day was filled with SUN /warm & l o v e
chiz, sound so sweet; it does -grin-
i went SAJC funfair in the morning, me & ah sao were almost ~~BURNT~~ in the sun, it was sorching hot, all the sudden, hving e urge to be ~~SEXY~~ .. "striping off my clothes & jump into any swimming pool" but ya, i was fantasying only =| .hot. .hot. .hot. f-u-n fair is supposed to b fun but, no i'm not having. clem's brownie was nice, xinyi's prata mania (???) ex egg prata: $2.50, nat sells canned food (what???) i saw world's tallest men; 2 of dem; 2.4m ??? o_O getti ?? i wunder hw their mums gave birth to dem, doc hving hard time nowadays w long babies lolx =| lolx i had a glitter tatooo, sprayed-hair, SAJC tee shirt (sweet nataline gave me free tickets) =D

my clsmate, qiyin went service :) i guessed she was shocked, is a church supposed to be so HIGH ? 1st-timer to church, under/s ?? but, she had a fun time, i hope so (with me ? jacqueline?) =| haha, a sermon on *how 2 live with a husband so weird*; love\marriage ... nice, day ended with Chris's wonderful msg on love.

p.s your love will come when u least xpected it, so no point pondering on short-term courtships. teenagers nowadays suck, empty promises esp guys, when they even had a prob about the security of their future, cant even support themselves with taxes, ceo, utility bills + + +
treasure e friendships ..

march movie resolution (??)
lemony snicket's a series of unfortunate events (MUST WATCH!! i love baby sunny baudelaire)
miss congeniality 2
son of the mask
mabbe.. winnie e pooh's heffalump movie

×× b nice ²me _ _____

2005-02-19T12:17:00.000+08:00

yesh!
b nice 2me _ _____
that will be my quote for this weekend =| people r treating lyk a piece of sh*t, nvm, be nice to me but i'll be nice to u but dont blame me if u caught me talking behind yr back (lolx* -evil grin-) mean me, i went school today i did! i did! yea, had quite some fun in skool, as usual, laming ard, turnin-17s r nuts up there; watch outta
thank Jesus, so now the stupid be-teacher-as-career thingy is finally drawin an end, it's none of my business, i'll still have chance to go SAJC, oh God, be nice to me nvm, He's always sweet& lovely to me, my lover *GOD*

i din went fer class BBQ, what's wrng w my class, super enthu about everything, from outings to outings & they called me "ms always MC" meanest people frm 05A03\PJC -arghh !!- this is not funny, uhmmm .. i went temasek poly open hse, a lot of eye c a n d i e s ~~wooohoo~~ lolx, o0ps* but yea, i wunt go tat far-away sch but girls .. make TP yr choice, u know what i mean? okay, nth much, i shld end here, my cls mate cumin service tmr (GodBlessHEr* & all of u)

skipping ard the skool

2005-02-18T12:17:00.000+08:00

im sry pple,
im such a failure, i overslept today AGAIN =|
*felling terribly guilty*
i was doing homework last night, plus ~~online`ing~~ ..uhmm..
i din mean it ?
okay, im bad, i likes & LOVES to slp
okay, the first thing i was to catch -constantine-heheheheheheeee..
the lead actor was -wo hOO-
makin me to sweat =|
lala, went to take alot of neoprints, walk ard ..
went to nike to change my top, very small & i wore it once =|
hehe, im bad.
bought *seventeen*
& realised i hv this condition called "post inflammatory hyperpigmentation" aka PIH
getti ?
just some dark marks after pimples or acnes =S t e r r i b l e
i hv ~~disease~~
fine. wassup ? =P
my sch hving this stupid mass bbq for all J1s :( not very keen to go, so im gonna skip it .. heEx sianz, tons of work to do. i think i spend alot of mag this week, bought 3 mags le.. i think im just too bored, reading ALOT -grins-

back-row girls` a t t i t u d e

2005-02-17T12:16:00.000+08:00

mooo~
okay, wart a bad way to say "hi" =P
i sucks, nvm, days r cool wearing st. theresa convent uniform c o o l im slacking throughtout today, cant concentrate in sch, slping with eyes opened thru all lessons (i only had 3 hrs of slp) =S i only loved PE; my best PE lesson; i played pepsi-cola- 1 2 3 =|
boonie's eye candy so cute ! i hope i find mine
ohz .. i went to watch match after tat, woww newtown won (of causeM/l>) & i drag my cls bud -minci- down, so sweeee e t, now we r darlings* lolx

i feel tat there's a lot ot say but cannot rmb, den i went back sch for o.d.a.c enjoyed myself a lot, running aways lyk mad children, nv eat lunch somemore ...
im tired today
cant write much
results r releasing soon
oh, now only God can help (:

05A03 is gonna slipt into pieces, back-row gals r raising up .. yea, we r gonna be on our own 11of`us =P

his birthday ..

2005-02-16T12:15:00.000+08:00

i overslept today, my sister who woke up at 6:30pm nv wake me up MISS KIMBERLEY KOH !!!! lolx she reads my blog .. so ya, k la, im grateful to her, i had 12 hrs of sleep .. heeEx oh, i got my st.theresa uniform, gonna wear .. heehe big betrayer of ntss =P

guess wart, 2 bad news & 1 gd news, care to hear ?

bad new 1# do i look lyk ah lian, bad bad bad, pple who dunno me thinks i'm one ? tt's bad till e core when i'm not, u cant really find me scolding @$%~!%^!#% nowadays, u mean pple .. no la, dont laugh at me lyk sijia (u're mean but i still love u; look at mt friendster) hahaha, im not upset, just asking for opinion cause cindy says i look lyk one, do i look lyk one ? then pls pay fer my makeover, i wlll b grateful to ya

bad new 2# i had a lonely valentine with 9 other pple, so what ? loners deserve a friendship day right ? i hear echoes behind my back (: lolx, went over to chris place to swim *wao* and eat .. muaching all over pizza & my drumlets were gone, nvm .. i'll haf lotsa of chances to eat till i'm fat -grins-

gd new# hi all o level kiddies, haf u receive the MOE letter saying u to seek being a teacher as yr career, teaching d&t, art & music .. blablabla ? heard a rumour tat only pple with L1R5 17 & below will receive it (= im seriously so so sooooo happy cause i received =D i dont care if my friend bluff me ... a short-moment of happiness is enuff

ooo one more bad news- o lvl result r coming out.. uhmmm -anxious-

days w/o roses

2005-02-13T12:15:00.000+08:00

buzzzz; im back here on the "spot" nvm, im dumb .. ya, i reformated my com cause it cant enter internet explorer tot i can chat on msn (-__-") it just get pissed by me, ya, we had a quarral ?! new year is not very good but ya, i caught "i do i do" yest so yea, singaporeans shld support it ? uhmm, lame jokes but nice show, got cheated by the plot in the end =P dumb jack neo ..
nothing much to write, just crapping ard in my life .. behaving lyk taitai, doing nth much special, eat slp play & pray ?

today's sermon was nice, a perfect husband goes with a perfect wife .. i'll try to be one before i gets 30. yea .. life .. all about this. the e n d *

come angbao come !!

2005-02-10T12:14:00.000+08:00

come angbao($) come come !!
at my aunt's hse now, oOhz had a terrible night yest; so sry.. yea\ new yr mood makes me a lil mad but well, pple r commenting on my face [what's wrng w yr pimples (whateva)] i dont care, eh .... just come la, ang bao* =P yes, lyk what bel says, shop after CNY !!! hey frenz; enjoy yr hols& buzzz ....

buzzzzzzz offf !

2005-02-09T12:14:00.000+08:00

oh plz buzzzz off if you're not my friend. BARRRKKKKKK* warning: jacqueline is a angry ger. [wateva] bad new year; anyway 2005 wasnt a great yr afterall. arghhhhhh.. life sucks i hate everything i see, i hate every word tat gotta into my ear. i hate, i hate &i really hate !! i dunnno la, perhaps an attack of PMS (again?!) plus+ a million times of human attacks against a poor girl lyk me. yes, it's ME! i got all these insults& comments again, c`mon n live yr life away frm me, u disgusting people\ yucks`

kz;l enuff of my irritating freaky mindset. de world is against, suffocating thru this planet, struggle fer every single breathe.. kaox. bad day; bad year; BAD! i'm heaven super bad days, but i try to smile thru it. i hate fake smiles on my face. yes, im useless &ugly but i don need yr stupid comments !! ~~f r i e n d s~~ not worth a single cent\ puke.

just feel lyk ending this life of mine. freak` ARGHHH ...

i'll cheer up and cool and smile till the sunrise of another day comes. poor life i had, endure thru all parts of difficulties (:
e amt of angbao will nv rub away my pain. i hate em' tot i wanna love but u all ..... fine! i'll be the person who deserve all horrible sufferings

peEkaboo`

2005-02-08T12:11:00.000+08:00

aloHAA- wart a greeting!
bzzz; miss me ? loLx had a fab dae, monday bluess were all erased (thnx to God) but it's so fun today! i wore crescent uni today, woooho` fun, outta of that blue& white. uni fi n a ll y . . & malcom\ben\waikit\edmund\wxiang crash PJC today, they r so cute. my classmates were shocked to see mal, he's so BIGGG& cute :D nxt, the day was fun, GP lesson watch movie; sch rawks!

went town to shop with boon& siying, oooHx so much ntss pple but all still can recognise me =S boon& i wanna bluff siying to stay on cause she going back sch to train netball .. so both of us keep walking frm shops to shops. i then meet mich, clem, chris.. blabla.. we walk ard town lyk crazy, so tempted to buy a nike top *kaOx today im so broke, left ten c. okay ( ?!!) so ashamed of myself, spend so much -heex-

tmr pjc has no school !!! NO !!! so cool right, say we "deserve it" .. well i'll be back in ntss *miss me*
P.S: i saw tt girlguides thinnest chio bu, she pretend she dunno me hmph

i need to change blogskin, sucksssss`

is life tt great afterall ?

2005-02-07T12:11:00.000+08:00

yest
yea is life tat great afterall, it's so .. so-so loh, i'm forced to live in this world, ARGH ! wanna go heaven faster (im mad today -ROARRR) i was cheated by my budds yest, i woke up at 6:30am, thinking tat after a nice breakfast we can tour in SP but SP only start the stupid open hse at 10pm. so after a nice big breakfast at M.A.C we headed town fer ELEKTRA .. dee movie rawks ?? it's funk-ly cool with jenn garner, what a personality for the actress. headed for cell grp & lead worship, oh man, bad xperience, i cant sing properly ! got everyone feeling so awkward, really wanna hide under dee blankets! windows r breaking loh (kiddin!) but nvm, first trial so i'll practise more nxt time grins church service was cool - - Ps.Khong rocks, he's cute too, lolx. yest was piercing day, juinyeow & ho ho both pierced waos i had a biggie dinner yest, celebrating CHRIS FUN's bdae.. weeZ.. we ate steamboat buffet .. wart a day but had fun ?!!

t o d a y. went for sunday school to teach (i scared kids away!) lolx ..went out with my sis n jer, he's such a shopper loh, cant stand shopping w him. he rawks lor, just rd & rd the place for millions of times -bzzzzzz- he train & i dunt. so caught sumthing in my eyes, the coolest handbage .. =S too ex (x___-") nvm, i got a skirt .. i hate it when im broke/ fine, im rich with nonsense ??!

WHAT THE FREAK IS GOING ON WITH MY BLOGSKIN ... KAOX ... LIFE IS SO NICE